Slow Mornings

Today is another slow start to my day. As I arise, I check for pain throughout my pain, testing each area for sufficient movement and non-resistance. As I have often been known to go to bed one way and wake up another. Having and healing through Stage 4 Cancer in your bones will do that for you!

I was asked by my nurse at one of my radiation treatments, “Was I romanticizing my cancer experience?” because I made the effort to show up cute and smelling good. I told her no, I was dressing up for me, to help boost my confidence and for my mental and emotional health. Because going through cancer once is a doozy, but 3 times, boy oh boy, you can start spiraling down fast. Plus, to romanticize means to deal with or describe in an idealized or unrealistic fashion; make (something) seem better or more appealing than it really is.  Cancer is neither appealing nor something to be idealized. The reality is that social media has everyone wanting to share their life and influence others in ways that can be a bit unrealistic.

But, I digress, let’s get back on topic about slow mornings!  I have come to appreciate not having to hustle and bustle out the door to be somewhere at some specific time and pay attention for some specific reason. Last year, I was in class in person, and it was a lot on me physically, but it actually did pretty well for my mental and emotional health to be around vibrant younger people. I forged some friendships and learned I am good at math. GO FIGURE!

This semester, I am taking all my classes online, which  I am grateful for because I can go back to enjoying these slow mornings.  Every season of my life is literally guided by my Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, and Holy Spirit (Who are One)! So I have learned to pivot when necessary.   So for this season, I will enjoy my slow mornings, because who knows what the next season has in store for me. I might be catapulted full on into my new and blooming career of Psychology. 

Love, Listiner Inspires.